I don't really know what to say or how to say it. Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes you wish you knew why or what this or that could really be of benefit. Sometimes your sad, happy, mad and I mean fire mad, and sometimes your numb. You are always thankful, grateful, and your heart always seems like it will explode with all the love you have for such small Littles.
I hate the knot in your throat as you're trying to ask questions, trying to understand, trying to have a game plan, trying so desperately to see a light in darkness, wishing on every ounce of who you are to have your dreams of your children having "normal" lives come true. Which brings me to "normal". Normal is no longer will your child have sleepovers, will your child play this sport or have that hobby, will they be a good student... no FUCK THAT.... the new "NORMAL" will be will your child be bullied at school, will your child be able to graduate, go to college, HAVE A JOB, LIVE ON THEIR OWN, GET MARRIED. And I can't help but be so mad right now. I HATE this new normal. I HATE IT! I hate it so much that inside I just want to explode but I can't. We can't.
Yes, I have FAITH. Yes, I just said FUCK THAT and as confusing as it might be to people who read it just imagine the fight within. These kids did not deserve to be born early. They did not deserve to go through horrific procedures and surgeries. They are innocent.
Yesterday was a beautiful day spent at the park and it was a very dark day within an instant with a single phone call from the hospital.
KP
Yes, I have FAITH. Yes, I just said FUCK THAT and as confusing as it might be to people who read it just imagine the fight within. These kids did not deserve to be born early. They did not deserve to go through horrific procedures and surgeries. They are innocent.
Yesterday was a beautiful day spent at the park and it was a very dark day within an instant with a single phone call from the hospital.
KP
