That is a big dose of perspective. Every day counts.
Brody and Gracie will wake up bright and early for school tomorrow morning. They are ready. I am not. I'm dreading it actually. When they started preschool I knew it was right. Every bit of me knew they would grow, thrive, and be safe there. I didn't worry a single day about my kids. B & G's new teacher seems really nice. She called me on Wednesday to get a few basics about them. We talked for 45 minutes and she really seems great but... they were two of only four kids in the class. Now they are two of only 3 total in the class. I've met the other child. I am worried. I am worried about their safety and I'm worried about them picking up behaviors that would not be appropriate. The things is, Brody and Gracie are both bright children who are capable of learning in the same environment as Madi. I keep asking myself why I'm not sending them to the same school as Madi. Right now I'm beside myself for making this decision for them. And then there is the fact that my babies are 3 years old and just turned 3 for that matter. In my eyes, they have no business going to elementary school. Again, what have I done? The school smells like mold. It's literally the oldest elementary school in Kingwood and no improvements have been made. Why they would pick that school to have a program that has medically fragile children is beyond me. I was bothered by the smell and I have mild asthma. If the school makes my kids they will not attend there. I guess I can sit a pick apart the place and come up with a million reasons why we shouldn't but I will give it a try. I will see how they adjust to the early hours and the process in general.
It's not just them starting school. This summer has been amazing. We've not really had too many appointments and have had zero therapy. I hate therapy. The kids hate therapy. Ricky hates therapy. Ricky actually suggested a couple days ago to just have Gracie in PT therapy until her legs are stronger. If they don't make good progress by Christmas we will do just that. A lot of times therapy is a big waste of time. Of course therapist will get them qualified like they really need it but we've been doing this for 3 years now and quite honestly they've made the improvements they've made just by living normal life.
Tomorrow also starts school for Ricky and I.
Madi also has gymnastics and thank goodness because her school doesn't start until September.
So there are a lot of things starting tomorrow and I'm not sure if it's how busy we are going to be or just because I feel like I don't have control over my kids' schedule anymore. I don't know. What I do know is the days go so quickly and I feel like they are being rushed to grow up when all I want is for the clock to stand still.
Krista
