I LOVE this quote. It really speaks volumes.
So it's absolutely no surprise that time is my enemy but I've been thinking a lot about goals, life, etc. I keep coming to the conclusion that I'm a little crazy for putting so much on my plate and having such high expectations, dreams, and goals. It's a struggle because you are suppose to have dreams so big they scare you and what is life without goals? The problem I have is that my kids are growing up before my eyes and although I'm with them 24/7 I feel like it's still not enough.
Which brings me to my other struggle... Enough and More. You see, I don't want to just pass through this life with the barely get by mentality. I'm not talking financially but with everything I do. I don't want to be a half ass mom or half ass wife, worker, student, etc. I want to be the best... I want to be enough... so no one around me is wanting more and I'm not expecting more out of myself.
So I've been on the crazy "soul searching" quest the past couple days and I've realized that I need to slow it down. I've realized what I want the most is what is also making me crazy because of the unrealistic expectations I have of myself.
I don't want to wake up one day when my kids are grown and have regrets or regrets that Ricky and I didn't do this or that or even regrets about my career. I don't want to wonder what I've done with my life or the past 5 years. I want everyday to mean something and be worth remembering.
I guess I do believe in fairy tales still because I do believe you really can have it all but you have to first find a realistic balance.
When my kids are grown I want them to have the best memories of their childhood and the fun times we create. I don't ever want them to feel like they aren't the most amazing gifts Ricky and I've ever received because it's simply my biggest wish in life for them to realize how amazing they are and how in love we are with them.
Anyway, that is my Friday and it's been a really stressful week. I'm looking forward to the simple life this weekend.
Kids update: All is good. They are just amazing and I'm the luckiest momma in the whole wide world to call them mine :)
KP
