There is NO reason for this crap! I don't need to learn something from this or become a better person because of this. NOPE, if you need me to learn a leason then do this crap to ME!
Brody now has ROP. If you don't know what ROP is then Google it. He had emergency surgery Friday. We will not know what his vision will be for up to 6 weeks. Hasen't he been through enough? I think he has.
Madi is not home. I don't even care about that at this point. She may be home on Monday but who knows. She also is developing ROP but it isn't critical right now.
Gracie is doing great. However, she is also developing ROP but is not critical.
I'm tired of my kids going through this horrible stuff. There is no reason for it and if there is a reason it isn't worth their suffering to prove a point. Where is the GRACE and MERCY?
Brody,
I don't understand why you have to go through this stuff. I am sorry this is happening to you. I want you to know that during all of this, I love you so much; to the moon and back! You are such a brave little boy. I would never be strong enough to go through what you have gone through. You are still the sweetest baby despite the tubes, surgeries, needles, IVs, invasive eye procedures, the list goes on. You are amazing to me. You deserve much better than this. I don't understand why you are not getting dealt a better hand but I promise this: I will spend my entire life making this up to you. I'm so very sorry and I love you with all that I am. Keep fighting little boy. Your sisters need you and I need you. I will break every rule and make every person burning mad to get you what you need and deserve. If your sisters and your mom and dad need to be cheering at your bedside everyday, I will make it happen. Whatever you need, I will make happen. This is not just now but your entire life. Your daddy loves you so very much too. You moved your head to me when I gave you a kiss on the cheek today... I wanted to just pick you up and hold you and never let go but I couldn't, you were going off to surgery. I know you know who I am and I know you know how much I love you. Keep being brave and strong and I will figure out the rest.
I love you,
Mommy
