2 am conversation? Anyone?

Since I don't sleep anymore, I have a lot of time on my hands to think about things. Most of the time this is not a good thing but sometimes it is. 

Sometimes I try to remember what life was like before the babies. I remember making good money, buying whatever I wanted, never being home, going out to eat with just Ricky, VACATIONS, you know freedom. But with that was also taking care of a boy that no matter what Ricky and I tried, was never enough, the extreme discipline issues that came with that boy, the drama. I don't miss that part one bit.