I know we don't have many follower anymore but even if we only had one, I'd still ask just the same. Please keep my family (not immediate like babies or husband) in your prayers. This week is going to be a really big week for my mother and my only prayer is that if this is in God's plan and timing, then everything will fall into place and not be forced.
I have not had much if any contact with my mother in 8+ years. She has had some major addiction issues that I refuse to have in my life or even tolerate. It's really just pissed me off quite honestly that someone could waste away their life when some fight for every breath they take. Anyway, I recently felt God putting this on my heart to reach out and offer some help. Although I did try 8+ years ago and really didn't want to, there was that strong call to try. Of course if you know me it took a couple days because I get mad as HELL about this! and I kept trying to quiet this but this isn't my path to make so I better obey, right? Anyway, I text messaged her, she didn't text back but called. I didn't answer and was still kind of resisting the whole deal. I text her again hours later and she didn't text back but called. I was so annoyed but answered. I was straight to the point with ZERO FLUFF. You know what? She actually agreed and didn't put up a single fight? Want to talk about shocked. Then I figured, well why not push more and test the limits so I said I would need her to go on Monday to rehab. Now I totally knew she would push back on that but guess what? She didn't.
I'm working very hard on finding a rehab that I'm comfortable with. I did find one and it does seem good but I'm looking into all the options. If anything bad were to happen then it would pretty much be my fault for sending her there, etc. But what I'm looking at is all the good that this could do. She could really turn her life around if she wants to.
One thing she did say tonight was she came from a family of addiction and that is all she knows. I'm not buying that B.S. because my response to her was, yeah, me too but guess what, I'm not like that and I could be. If there is one thing you take away from this please know this, no matter what your childhood was like or even into your adult years, what was around you and you were exposed to does not mean you have to be tainted with any of that in your future. I believe it takes a very strong person to overcome the crap addictions causes to families but I also know that even those that have those addictions have strength somewhere inside them. It's a choice you make on where you spend your energy. If it's getting drunk or high then that is what will win. If it's succeeding in your life then that is what will win. It's not by accident but by choice.
Anyway, please pray that I find the perfect rehab, she will still be willing to go, and that I will have the patience of a saint because I have none with this type of stuff.
I'll update with the good outcome soon.
In other news:
Ricky and I are planning to meet up with the kids' NICU nurse Monday at the Children's Museum. It's the first day of school around here so we hope it won't be packed.
All three of the kids are now saying feet and pointing to them.
Ricky and I canceled our little beach trip because the hurricane is hitting Pensacola on Tuesday or Wednesday and even though it's two weeks away, the water will probably still be off because of the storm, and if there is any damage. It's disappointing but we can always plan to go again.
Ricky's job is so busy right now and they are working so many hours. They've not worked like this in almost a year. We are all hating it because we aren't use to it.
The kids and I are going to Lufkin today for a day trip- LOVE it up there!
We signed the kids up for swim lessons two times per week and they start on Friday! Super excited about this for them. I think they will love it because they love swimming in their pool and the neighborhood pool.
My school starts this week but I received a message late Friday about something being wrong with my financial aid so I have to figure out what is wrong with that. Fingers crossed it's nothing.
My great Grandma is settling into her new nursing home. Please pray for her and my aunt and uncle. It's an adjustment for everyone involved.
I think that is it. Seems like enough to me.
KP
