I had one of those moments late last night where I was WOWed. I get this quite frequently but something about last night and again today made me really take a serious look at a couple things.
To have people personally contact you to say that you as a mother, your kids, your husband, your family unit INSPIRE them is something I don't take lightly. I get message from "How do you do it" to "Your story is such an inspiration" a lot and I've always thought that it was really nice of them and it's great to have some encouragement in all our chaos but what struck me is I don't want people to think we are perfect because we are not. I hope that we don't try to seem perfect and I don't want other young moms to think they are not measuring up because I have three kids with the things we deal with, etc and they are so overwhelmed and seem like they can't even shower, make dinner, do any house work, etc. Here is a very big secret, my house is a mess ALL the time, I wish I could shower everyday, and we eat out way more than we should. I can't do it all. Actually, maybe I could but I choose to spend quality time with my kids and not chores. This life is hard, it's exhausting, it's always changing, it's so many things but I always try to remain grounded, thankful, and remember daily how blessed we are. We don't deserve this wonderful life with these beautiful children but I am so grateful with all the blessings we have. Ricky and I have been through the darkest times in our lives during my pregnancy and when our babies were born. It forever changed our lives, how we look at relationships with people, and our relationship with God. Yes, it seems like it's always something going on with the kids but what I know is God was with us then and He is with us everyday. I do worry sometimes but I know the kids will be okay when all is said and done. I have that peace.
The second thing I've realized is I have such a great platform and duty to help others. It could be sharing our story or just being supportive to other moms, I don't know but all glory be to God and not me because my strength, my kids, and husband's strength is all God's doing. I could have never done what I've been able to do without Him.
Anyway, I hope our readers find inspiration. I hope my children see that they are here not because of doctors but because of God's grace.
Brody was released form the hospital tonight. It's a long road ahead but I hope we will be able to get everything sorted out with his GI issues. His daddy went shopping while Brody and I took a nap today and brought him back a UT baseball cap that fits him perfectly. The doctors and staff thought it was too cute and of course so did we.
I know I wrote a couple weeks ago that Ricky will be starting school in the summer. It's such a blessing because his company will pay his tuition 100% and 50% of his books. We do have to pay for the tuition up front but after the class is completed they reimburse him. His HR lady named a number of career opportunities within Halliburton he will have once he has his degree in Mechanical Engineering. I am one proud wife! I'm so excited for him!! He has a very big goal of getting into a prestigious university in the Houston area once he is finished with his basics at our local college. He even talked about possibly moving to Austin when it's time to transfer. Which brings me to my next thought...
There is something satisfying with being happy with what you have and where you are. It's an amazing feeling knowing this is where you should be in this stage of life. It's not about material things. That has been such a hard lesson but once we realized it, we couldn't be happier. .... Just close your eyes and you will see that we are where we're meant to be.... LOVE that song just LOVE it! We are suppose to suck it up and finish our degrees, being present parents, being married not just coexisting. All of those things makes this life the best there is!! This is the season we are in and I will take this life and be happy and make this best out of it.
KP
