Monday we had the meeting set up for PPCD. I was literally sick about it and Ricky and I just couldn't bring ourselves to go. Are we making the wrong choice? Well, we'll never know for certain but I do know a lot. I know that for me as a mother and this being our family, we don't feel right sending our kids to a big school 5 days per week at 3 years old. I know that as a mother that has weathered one hell of a journey with my kids, I have to trust my gut and my gut tells me this isn't right. There is an unsettled feeling that I'm not willing to risk. I also know that my husband almost always goes with the flow and let's me make decisions for our family but when he also has concerns and does not want them to go, I need to respect that input. I also know I can arrange a much better education for them two to maybe three days per week than the classroom setting with all the distractions in a PPCD class. And Lastly, I know me and I know that if one of my kids were hurt in any way because of other kids having that outlet of hitting, etc. I would not be okay with it. It is very expensive for us to pay the kids monthly tuition and we've decided we'd do without certain things to make this happen. At the end of the day, I have to feel at peace with where my kids are and what they are exposed to. I need another year with my babies because they won't be "babies" long.
Another thing we have going around here is Gracie is in desperate need of a third day of Physical Therapy to help in her recovery from her leg surgery. There were many very wonderful things that came form her surgery but over half her leg was cut open on the back side in three different cuts. The nerves and muscles damaged was severe and she has lost so much muscle mass in that leg that there is about a 50% difference in size from her good leg. It's nothing a little extra work won't fix but two days per week isn't cutting it. It looks like we'll be adding Fridays at 9am to our schedule.
Ricky's work is so very busy. Apparently they usually book out 3 months in advance and at this time they are booked out 9 months in advance. That equals a lot of working. They've talked about working 6 days per week indefinitely. We don't like that much at all but the good thing is if they want the weekend off it won't be a problem. They don't want the to burn out but Ricky has been burn out from back when he was working 100 hours a week a couple years ago!
We are kind of on stand by right now. My great grandmother isn't doing so well and they fear she may pass anytime. She lives in AL but would be buried in central FL. The plan is for us to drive down for the funeral should she go home. Pretty bitter sweet. She has Alzheimer and 6 or 7 years ago was the last time I saw her but she didn't know who I was. She thought I was my mom. That is such a horrible disease because you can be completely healthy otherwise and have no control over your mind. My grandfather on my dad's side also had the disease. Anyway, we hope whatever is meant to be happens.
I'll update again soon.
KP
