Ricky is working days this week and we don't like it at all! It's hard for him to adjust and he is exhausted when he gets home. Plus, we get to spend more time with him when he works nights. I can't wait until our schedule is back to normal.
Speaking of normal, OMG! It has really been one thing after another the past couple months. My car had some issues within a week apart that KILLED our budget, something else happened (I can't remember at this point), and now Ricky's truck needs a new tire! The crazy part is within this two month time frame we've freed up over $700 in our budget. I cannot wait to be able to see that freed money! On another downside, it looks like we might have to get me a newer car. We are concerned with the seat belts in the backseat. Newer cars have metal hooks that are welded into the frame that car seats snap into. Our car is almost 13 years old so we have the old fashioned run the seat belt through the car seats. Anyway, the seat belts have suddenly started loosening a lot but are still buckled so they wouldn't be great should we really "need" them. This makes me so sick because my car is just fine other than maintenance stuff that comes with an older car and I didn't really want to get a newer car until the kids went through the destroying phase. Plus, I really wanted my next car to be my dream car which is a black Cadillac Escalade :) Hey, I can dream, right? We've started doing some research and I was looking at a smaller SUV but Ricky pointed out we barely fit in a Suburban so we'll have to get something around the same size. I'm trying to save on gas since it cost a small fortune to fill up. Anyway, I do have a point with all this and it's this, it's always something but we are really trying to not go into any additional debt. We are so close to being debt free (minus the mortgage) I can taste it!!
I'm so excited for 2013. I hope all our dreams and plans come true. I'm proud of where we are and things are really looking bright!! I think this is the year where we can focus on specific goals and things we like individually and as a family. I feel like Ricky and I can do things that are not 24/7 kid, kid, kid stuff and I'm happy, happy, happy to make time for a good balance. That might sound bad but I don't mean it bad. If you really know me, you know I don't even take time to get a haircut because my whole life, every minute is dedicated to my Littles but I want Ricky and I to find ourselves again. It's a goal.
Another thing you might not know, most all the titles of the post are quotes that are for a reason. I lost my dad when I was 17 and it has made me who I am today. With that, there isn't a day that goes by when I wished I could pick up the phone and just talk to him. To ask his advice or bounce a crazy idea off him. The quotes are things I think are important for my Littles to know should anything happen to me and I'm not here to raise them. Hey, tomorrow is not promised. I want them to have their daddy's compassion and big heart and my no nonsense and strong will. Should something happen to me, my hope is they have this blog to know me. That's why I speak my mind 100% of the time. Yes, sometimes I should probably be a little softer on certain things but this is me and I don't think you can get much real(er) than this blog.
Another thing you might not know about me because I've just realized this about me in the past couple months are these two things:
I am obsessed with remodeling and adding stuff to our house. Like totally obsessed. It drives Ricky so crazy. Seriously, he hates it. Anyway, in some weird way I can't explain it makes me feel like home, like where I came from. My dad use to do the same stuff. Any time he would walk into my room I knew it meant he was adding something or remodeling something, etc. Goodness, I wish he were still here.
The other thing is a person I never talk about, my mother. One of her biggest faults if that's what you want to call it, was how she would help others out. I know that doesn't sound like a fault but for instance, our neighbor growing up was a widow and didn't have any family. Mom "adopted" her as part of our family. When this person got cancer, she basically dedicated her life to the woman. Anyway, I think I do have some of my mother in me and I think this is it. I really would love to start a non profit to help families in need. I really have felt lead to do this since we were able to get such a wonderful backing for the family we "adopted" for Christmas. We will see what becomes of these plans...
Anyway, this has become totally random at this point but another insight into how this mind thinks and another view into who we really are. People change, I've changed, and I'm still changing. That's life, right?
To my love...
If I ain't got nothing, I got you.
If I ain't got something I don't give a damn, cause I got it with you.
And it's me and you that's all we'll have when the world is through.
When my days look low, pull me in close and don't let me go.
So when the world's at war, let our love heal it all.
I know I will fight for you.
Just when I ball up my fist I realize I'm laying right next to you.
Cause baby we ain't got nothing without love
Darling you got enough, enough for the both of us.
KP
