Gracie will be having surgery on Monday to help her foot. We had to make the difficult decision to have her awake and the area numbed as best they can. We feel like putting her on the ventilator would be too risky given her medical history. The doctor will give her a shot in the back of her heel and cut the tendon so it will release. They will put her back in a cast after this. Depending on how well she is doing, will determine how well they can cast her. This should be the last cast. This is very difficult for us because she will be in pain. We feel like she has been through so much and I really hate that she has to continue to go through these things. She is so brave and strong. Every week when they cut her cast off she just holds my hand and squeezes, never cries. I wish I had a little of the strength she has.
Ricky is in PA so he will not be here for the procedure. This is very difficult for him as well. We didn't know about this surgery until he had committed to going to PA. We also didn't know Brody would be home while he is away either.
I heard something on the radio about not looking at what you don't have but what you do have. This is so true. Often times it is hard to not get caught up in the lack of support from Ricky's family and their meanness but if we stop and focus on the love and support we do have from our real family and friends, it is overwhelming. Somethings will never change or be fixed so instead of being upset about those things, we will strive to redirect those thoughts towards good. At the end of the day, the babies won't miss what they don't know.
Thanksgiving is a time to stop and realize you have a lot to be thankful for. Ricky and I realize just how blessed we are. We are working everyday to create memories that will last a lifetime. Next year will be great but this year has been wonderful too. Not at all what we had planned but that is the beauty of life.
Thanksgiving was my dad's favorite holiday. Every year I think about all the memories I had with him and our family. I hope everyone has a wonderful day filled with love. Please stop and realize you have a lot to be thankful for- all because of GOD.
Krista
