I've had a lot of thinking time and I've come up with several conclusions. One: STOP TRYING to make things/ relationships work with people who don't give a damn. Two: LET IT GO and don't look back. Now the work for me will be FORGIVENESS which is my biggest weakness. The conclusion is I'm grown, I'm an adult so is Ricky and we should never try to please others or stop our lives when people decide they want to be in our lives. Every year I've dreaded the holidays well, every year for the past 7 years. Not anymore. We are in a new chapter in life and it is all about our family; me, Ricky, Brody, Gracie, Madilynn and whoever is full of love and support. So there you have it.
Life is crazy folks but I couldn't imagine it any other way.
Our babies are great, growing more everyday. They amaze me more everyday and they make me stop and look at the BIG picture everyday. What is important today and what is the best choice I can make for them today. The reality is Brody will most likely not be ready to come home for Thanksgiving. I do have choices. I can either have him home on tube feeds or keep him in the hospital until he is on full feeds. I can either be selfish or give him time. Anyone close to me knows how bad I want these babies home, together for the holidays. Being a mother means putting babies' needs before my wants. Who knows, I might not be faced with this, we have 7 weeks but the doctor had that conversation with me today. Gracie will be home within two weeks, I got the official word today.
Krista
Quote from Dr. Seuss
